"The health of the entire Earth lies in honoring the female energy and its interconnection to nature's rhythms" ~Maya Tiwari
My mission is to support mothers in coming home to our innate wisdom and true health by cultivating a nourishing and inspiring relationship with our body and soul, with the Earth and with each other. I offer ongoing classes, retreats and workshops for mothers to come together and feel deeply nourished, inspired and connected. I also offer personalized support for mothers at various seasons of life from pregnancy through menopause.
I'm also a WiseEarth Ayurveda Teacher and my closest and dearest Mentor is the world renowned Ayurveda Teacher and Spiritual Leader, Maya Tiwari. I Teach the Womb Shakti Medicine WiseEarth Ayurveda online course, as well as WiseEarth's Food Breath and Sound Practioner course. I'm also an INNATE Postpartum Practitioner and I offer the INNATE Planning for the 4th trimester course throughout the year
I draw on the ancient medicine of Ayurveda and ancestral nourishment, as well as modern science on female hormones and holistic nutrition to support mothers along the journey. I do this by providing loving guidance on how to fully nourish the body, mind and spirit, heal intergenerational patterns, connect with the rhythms of Mother Earth, and trust our intuition and inner wisdom.
I am committed to fostering multigenerational communities of mothers to come together and share wisdom, support intergenerational health and healing through the seasons of life, and heal individually and collectively, thereby providing the foundation for the health and wellness of future generations.
My Background with Ayurveda, Embodiment, and Holistic Maternal Health
I approach health from the perspective that our wombs are a sacred portal for life, as well as an essential part of our health as women. My approach also rests on the belief that our hormonal shifts through each biological rite of passage are connected to the greater cycles of life and death, our ancestral lineage and Mother Earth's rhythms. I believe that the journey of motherhood, at all stages, requires and deserves a deep level of nourishment that many of us are missing. In fact many of us enter motherhood feeling very depleted.
According to Ayurvedic medicine, the way that we enter into motherhood, from the very start of conception, is an important in determining the long-term health of our children and ourselves. Ayurveda also teaches that how we care for ourselves, and how well we're cared for during the postpartum time is intricately connected to how we will experience and transition into menopause. In other words, our health and wellness is connected from one stage of the journey to the next. It's therefore essential that we understand this continuum of health and tend to these stages of the motherhood journey through deep body, mind and soul nourishment.
Another essential component of my own healing journey and my work with mothers is inner child healing. I believe that it's an essential part of intergenerational healing both at the physical and emotional levels. It has helped me connect with the tender parts of myself that are rooted in early imprints, cultivate deeper compassion and love for myself and for my lineage that I resource and offer to my children. When mothers are open to receiving this kind of healing, it becomes a potent part of how I support them/you through the journey of motherhood and the seasons of life.
Lastly, I draw on my background as a life-long Movement Artists and Somatic Educator to support mothers with cultivating deeper connection with their body, mind and spirit through embodied movement and mindfulness practices.
I live in Maui, Hawaii with my two children.
The longer, more personal version...
My own health journey has been a combination of learning the hard way and re-learning to trust my innate inner wisdom. It’s taken many detours, painful losses, challenges and a near death experience to realize what I've already known deep down~ that we are all part of the intelligence of Mother Earth and the cosmos. We go through cycles of darkness and light and we move through seasons of life just as Mother Nature does.
Every woman in my mother-line~ from my mother all the way back to my great-grandmother~had a hysterectomy. Therefore growing up, I didn't see or hear about menstrual health, or the seasons of the womb from menarche to menopause. My mother, grandmother and great-grandmother had hysterectomies for different reasons, ranging from painful fibroids to cancer. But given that this is the second most common surgery, at least in the U.S. (after cesarians), it was very normalized in my family. In fact, I believe it is way too normalized in our culture.
Of course, there are sometimes medical reasons to have one's uterus and reproductive organs removed, But there are many times that hysterectomies have and continue to be recommended for unnecessary reasons~ or in cases where if there was more knowledge and wisdom of womb-care and more reverence for this part of our bodies, it wouldn't be as common. The fact that we're having so many issues that cause painful conditions in our wombs and hormonal imbalances is a testament to how out of balance our systems and our culture is when it comes to female bodies and maternal health.
I say all of this to point out, that I was already growing into this life as a young woman with a sense of pain, disconnect and trauma carried over into my own womb. I felt a sense of grief around that, which took some big life-lessons to uncover.
At the age of thirty-five I met the man who would become the father of my children. About six months into our very new relationship I got pregnant. At the time I was in the final stages of getting my PhD from UCLA. By then I had been in academia for nearly ten years! I was heavily invested with mountains of debt and years of study, many exams, and so many presentations, conferences, and research. Even though I didn't consciously realize it at the time, my heart and my soul did not want to be on that path. It was taking a toll on my body. I was spinning my wheels, suffering from serious insomnia, and self medicating with all kinds of things I won't name here.
A couple of months after getting pregnant I went to visit my mom to help her through some very intense mental health issues. Soon after I arrived to her house I began to feel some pain in my womb. Several hours later I found myself passed out from internal bleeding due to a ruptured fallopian tube. It was an ectopic pregnancy and for a variety of reasons I wasn’t able to get to the hospital in time to detect it before it ruptured. I lost consciousness and literally felt my body dying. It was a very close call, I even broke my jaw as I landed flat on my face from passing out in front of the ER doors (if you understand the connection between the voice and the cervix/yoni the fact that I was barely able to speak due to my broken jaw probably doesn't escape you)
During the healing process I found myself experiencing so many mixed feelings. I was overwhelmed with immense gratitude that I was alive, yet I also felt a lot of resentment arising that I couldn’t quite explain. My hormones were wreaking havoc on me (if you’ve had a sudden loss of a pregnancy, you can probably relate). The trauma of the whole experience also left me with consistent nightmares and I had so much anxiety.
Still, something inside of me was telling me that my confusing and overwhelming emotions were also coming from a place much deeper than the immediate trauma and hormonal imbalances. I knew it was time to muster up the courage to set out on some soul searching. I slowly became more aware of how I had been mistreating my body, disconnected from my womb, and carrying ancestral grief and trauma in my womb for much of my adult life.
I started to get honest with myself about how my lifestyle and certain choices weren't serving me or honoring my body, my womb, and my soul. I came to realize that these choices and patterns were being driven by unconscious beliefs about what I felt I deserved and didn’t deserve. I was making choices based on past wounds, trauma, ancestral and familial imprints, a lack of worthiness and a lot of cultural conditioning.
Between my own early family imprints and the larger cultural and societal influences, I had developed unconscious habits stemming from a belief that I wasn't entirely worthy of love or of health.... Until I almost died. Until I had a taste of creating a being out of love and then losing that being. Until I began to discover that it's natural to want to be held and cared for. More importantly, I realized I needed to learn how to hold and care for myself in more authentic, compassionate and healthy ways. Of course, in some ways I'm still learning how.
I also began to see the connections between the scars in my womb that led to the ectopic pregnancy, and the pain I was carrying from my mother’s womb, and my grandmother’s womb and my great-grandmothers… and on down the line….It was through this soul searching, healing journey that I truly began to reconnect with my womb and nurturing energy with the loving pulse of the universe, None of this was not an immediate awakening. In fact, it has been a circular, unfolding process and is still very much a committed path.
I tried to soldier on with my Phd, but I was feeling more lost every day. My then partner suggested we go to Burning Man (it was my first and last time and his 13th or 14th). I said sure, and off we went. Anyway, we're pretty sure it was there that my son was conceived; and once my son was old enough to start dancing and busting out some moves, I became convinced that the playa, is in fact where he was conceived.
After my son was born, I sat in front the of computer trying to crank out a dissertation, but all I wanted to do was either snuggle with him or sleep or both. I kept trying to convince myself to finish. But little by little my attention was either focused on my love for him, or on learning about how to take care of myself during this transition into motherhood
Eventually I got pregnant again when my son was still under a year old and was still breast feeding. It was a surprise to say the least. But a couple of months later we learned that the baby's heart had stopped beating so I had to wait until it was time for it to make its way out of my body. In retrospect, this spirit helped me let go of a part of myself that was in the process of dying. I didn't go back to work on my dissertation and I slowly let go of finishing my Phd. I slowly began to let go of the guilt and shame I had been feeling about not finishing it. Not too long after my daughter was born! .
The Medicine of Motherhood
After loosing a pregnancy and nearly loosing my own life, then the experience of birthing a child, then loosing another pregnancy, and yet again birthing another child two years later, (whoah!) there was no way around having a much deeper, more profound connection with my body and my intuition and the flow of it all.
My children are older and I'm a single mom now. And it's been a beautiful, inspiring and often overwhelming and exhausting journey! But it's the most healing and sacred work I do in the world.
Motherhood has broken me open and reveal to me the unconditional love within and around all of us, as well as some of the wounds inside that still needed healing. It also showed me the limitations and lack of understanding and support in our society when it comes to motherhood and to women's health in general. AND it stirred a sense of longing for a deeper more rooted connection with the Earth that I had lost
Motherhood has taught me that there’s so much strength and vulnerability in living from our truth, following our intuition, healing our early imprints, tending to our health and being transformed by all the changes and rites of passages we go through as mothers along with our children.
Without the community built into our lives (in most cases in the Western /"modern" world at least) motherhood can also be lonely, very overwhelming and create a sense of longing for connection and for that village we're meant to be part of. My intention is to be a part of creating community for mothers across the generations and seasons of motherhood in order to share wisdom, inspiration and support each other's health and well-being.
I've received and learned so much through my own life experience, as well as from the guidance of my Teachers, sisters, and the support of true Medicine Women along the way. It's my true honor to share it with others.
And that's how I came to do the work that I do with mothers.
Thank you for taking the time to read all of this if you made this far! I hope it has given you a small window into who I am.